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Wednesday, 5 May 2010
Chapter 19
Chapter 19
She kissed me. At first I wanted to push her away… but I didn’t, I just kissed her back… her lips were so soft and tasted so sweet-
And then she pulled away
She got up and walked over to the window.
“I shouldn’t have done that. I’m sorry…” after a while of sitting in awkward silence I decided to leave.
As I walked up to the bus stop at the end of her road I was in a daze. What had I just done? I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going, and the next thing I knew I had walked slap-bang into Kyle.
“What are you doing here?” he asked me as I tried to walk away. He grabbed my arm and wouldn’t let go
I stopped struggling and turned around.
“I came to see Jordaine. Why do you care?”
“I was just wondering init… since when do you know Jordaine? You know she’s a bush bumper!” I rolled my eyes…
“Yes I did know, but imagine if I didn’t; you could have just destroyed our friendship. Anyway, can you let go of me now so I can go home.”
“Do you want a lift?” he asked as I started walking off
I turned around and walked back towards him.
“Whatever.”
He unlocked the car and we got in. the last time I sat in this car was when I dumped him :) … memories boyyy!
We both silence as we passed by meaningless faces and places… when we got to the main road there was bare traffic. KMT, now I would have to be with this nigga for longer than I needed to be.
“So how you been then?” Kyle asked. I looked at him
“Since when do you care? You didn’t care when you were having sex with Camilla” I said, turning away to stare out of the window.
Kyle didn’t speak again for about five minutes…
“You didn’t answer my question.”
I kissed my teeth and then I answered
“I’ve been fine I suppose.”
We sat in silence again until he done some loud dirty burp
“You’re fucking disgusting man! What the fuck have you been eating coz that stinks like shit?” I said
He started laughing like it was the joke of the year but I just ignored him
“I’m hungry bruv; you hungry??” he asked. I looked at him with a disgusted look on my face and turned away
“So after doing that burp, you wanna go and eat more food to make you burps stink even more?”
He ignored me and carried on driving. There was a McDonalds coming up; I thought he was gonna pass it, next thing I know he swerved into the Drive-Thru and ordered a LARGE Big Mac meal.
We sat in the car park whilst he ate his food.
“So (chomp, chomp) how you know Jordaine?” he asked
“Why do you care so much; it aint like me and you are even a couple, let alone friends.”
“Well soooryyy for showing an interest-“
“She’s in my dance class.”
“So what you a lesbian now?” he said whilst stuffing food in his mouth
“Are you saying I can't be just friends with her? Are you telling me you don't have any gay or bisexual friends?”
When I said that he nearly choked on his food
“NO! Batty man fi dead” he said while shaking his head
“Trust me; one of your tightest niggas in ten years time you’ll hear that he’s gay”
Eventually the conversation about gay people got deaded and he started some bullshit…
“Can we go now?? I’m getting bored of sitting here”
I hated to admit it, but I’d actually had fun with Kyle. This was probably another reason why our relationship failed – we never really just jammed and cracked jokes
He started the engine and drove out of the car park
“So where we going then?” he asked
“MY HOUSE! Did you forget already?”
“Nah mans just checking init”
He turned onto some one-way, two-lane road and started driving a bit faster coz there was no other cars around.
Just as we went around some bend I clocked there was some woman bent over in the middle of the road
“KYLE!!” He had to swerve to miss her and he nearly crashed into a wall.
I thought everything was fine until… “CRASH!”…
She kissed me. At first I wanted to push her away… but I didn’t, I just kissed her back… her lips were so soft and tasted so sweet-
And then she pulled away
She got up and walked over to the window.
“I shouldn’t have done that. I’m sorry…” after a while of sitting in awkward silence I decided to leave.
As I walked up to the bus stop at the end of her road I was in a daze. What had I just done? I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going, and the next thing I knew I had walked slap-bang into Kyle.
“What are you doing here?” he asked me as I tried to walk away. He grabbed my arm and wouldn’t let go
I stopped struggling and turned around.
“I came to see Jordaine. Why do you care?”
“I was just wondering init… since when do you know Jordaine? You know she’s a bush bumper!” I rolled my eyes…
“Yes I did know, but imagine if I didn’t; you could have just destroyed our friendship. Anyway, can you let go of me now so I can go home.”
“Do you want a lift?” he asked as I started walking off
I turned around and walked back towards him.
“Whatever.”
He unlocked the car and we got in. the last time I sat in this car was when I dumped him :) … memories boyyy!
We both silence as we passed by meaningless faces and places… when we got to the main road there was bare traffic. KMT, now I would have to be with this nigga for longer than I needed to be.
“So how you been then?” Kyle asked. I looked at him
“Since when do you care? You didn’t care when you were having sex with Camilla” I said, turning away to stare out of the window.
Kyle didn’t speak again for about five minutes…
“You didn’t answer my question.”
I kissed my teeth and then I answered
“I’ve been fine I suppose.”
We sat in silence again until he done some loud dirty burp
“You’re fucking disgusting man! What the fuck have you been eating coz that stinks like shit?” I said
He started laughing like it was the joke of the year but I just ignored him
“I’m hungry bruv; you hungry??” he asked. I looked at him with a disgusted look on my face and turned away
“So after doing that burp, you wanna go and eat more food to make you burps stink even more?”
He ignored me and carried on driving. There was a McDonalds coming up; I thought he was gonna pass it, next thing I know he swerved into the Drive-Thru and ordered a LARGE Big Mac meal.
We sat in the car park whilst he ate his food.
“So (chomp, chomp) how you know Jordaine?” he asked
“Why do you care so much; it aint like me and you are even a couple, let alone friends.”
“Well soooryyy for showing an interest-“
“She’s in my dance class.”
“So what you a lesbian now?” he said whilst stuffing food in his mouth
“Are you saying I can't be just friends with her? Are you telling me you don't have any gay or bisexual friends?”
When I said that he nearly choked on his food
“NO! Batty man fi dead” he said while shaking his head
“Trust me; one of your tightest niggas in ten years time you’ll hear that he’s gay”
Eventually the conversation about gay people got deaded and he started some bullshit…
“Can we go now?? I’m getting bored of sitting here”
I hated to admit it, but I’d actually had fun with Kyle. This was probably another reason why our relationship failed – we never really just jammed and cracked jokes
He started the engine and drove out of the car park
“So where we going then?” he asked
“MY HOUSE! Did you forget already?”
“Nah mans just checking init”
He turned onto some one-way, two-lane road and started driving a bit faster coz there was no other cars around.
Just as we went around some bend I clocked there was some woman bent over in the middle of the road
“KYLE!!” He had to swerve to miss her and he nearly crashed into a wall.
I thought everything was fine until… “CRASH!”…
Sunday, 25 April 2010
Chapter 18
Chapter 18
It was my brother Tyrell’s birthday. We were now in March and the Easter holidays were soon coming. A group of us were going TGI’s and then the next day he was having a drink-up. I had no idea who was coming to this drink up, but it was likely Kyle would be there.
I was standing in front of my full length bedroom mirror straightening my fringe (my hair was now Jet black with a purple fringe), and mentally going through my wardrobe.
The doorbell downstairs rang and I had to go and answer it because my mum was out, and Chelsea was still in the shower. It was Meisha and Karina… we went back up to my room where they did their make-up and whatever whilst I finished my hair and settled on an outfit. Black wet look leggings and a grey blazer with a white tee underneath.
After I got dressed we took a few pictures and waited for Chelsea to finish up. Whilst the rest of them were getting gassed over some vodka, I was thinking about the previous Saturday. My gran had forced me and a few people from my dad’s side to go to some Chinese restaurant. At first I thought fair enough, until we got there and we had to sit at a table next to Kyle and his family… it was so gay. Him and his cousins were bare talking about me and shit ¬_¬
Anyways we left my house and jumped a bus to TGI’s (Tyrell had already left to go and meet “someone”)
When we got there no-one was there, so I left the rest of them there and went to buy a nice bottle of Malibu so I could ‘Jamie Foxx’ it tonight…
***Kyle***
I am dreading this TGI’s ting tonight boy, Ciara would probably be there and I didn’t wanna see her coz I’m just gonna be reminded of what I lost. I’ve been feeling bare depressed lately, everyone’s been taking the piss out of me telling me I’m lovesick and shit ¬_¬ lowe it. But I think it’s time I stopped being stupid and I was just honest – I am in love with Ciara, and I’m going to do everything in my power to get her back…
***Ciara***
By the time I got back to TGI Fridays everyone was there. As I walked over to the table I clocked my brother’s friend /Kyle’s cousin Trey screwing me… Skeeeeeeeeen! And what have I done to you for you to be screwing me? I sat down between some random guy and Chelsea and placed my bag under the table and when I looked up Kyle was staring at me, and Trey was still screwing me. I just rolled my eyes and turned away from them.
I don't know why Tyrell even still talks to Kyle he’s such a snake :|
The waiter came over and took our orders and everybody started talking amongst themselves. Our drinks arrived, meaning it was time for me to crack open the Malibu ;) it was kinda dark where we were sitting so I could do it easily and discreetly.
I started talking to the guy next to me; Tyrell’s friend from university. His name was Michael… he was bare safe actually but I could tell he was a humble person…unlike some niggers who was STILL screwing me.
“Tyrell watch out, looks like she’s tryna move to another of your bredrins” said Trey. I looked up at him; all I had done was ask Michael for his BB pin and this foolish goat was talking…
“Do you have something to say? I don't understand moos” I said, slamming my drink down on the table. Tyrell was just sitting there as well; he wasn’t even tryna back me up. Well fuck him; I can fight my own battles
“Alowe yourself younger. Learn to respect your elders love”
“I don't respect people who disrespect me, and I also don’t respect animals – especially ones that look and smell like you.”
I got up and walked away from the table, to the toilets. I went into the toilets and stood in front of the mirror. What was I tryna prove with this little front? I wasn’t fooling anybody; inside I was hurting – really bad as well.
I wiped the tears off of my face and looked in the mirror. I looked like shit but I didn’t care. I brushed my hair up into a ponytail and smiled at myself in the mirror. I went back to the table and sat down quietly without looking at or speaking to anyone.
I looked at my phone; I had a text from my friend Jordaine. Me and her had become really tight recently; we’d both been through a lot of shit in the past few months. She was bisexual though, so her relationship was kinda different coz it was with a chick… but whatever. She had just seen her ex with a new girl… I guess no matter what sex a person is, it still hurts when they hurt you…
***
The next day I went to Jordaine’s house… she lived down the road from Kyle unfortunately but I didn’t see him on my way.
We were sitting on her sofa and she was telling me about what happened with her ex and when she saw her.
“You’re so lucky Ciara, you already knew what you wanted, whereas I’m just fucking confused. Stupid people!”
“Ermm… darling are you talking about males or females?” I asked her
“Both!” we started laughing…
It was nice having a friend who actually knows what you’re going through… all my other friends were just like get over it, shit happens. But you can't relate until it happens to you. Jordaine was the only person in the whole world I knew I’d had an abortion, we told each other everything now…
She came back from the kitchen with two plates and a tray loaded with food and a bottle of Jack Daniels :)
She sat down next to me (I was laying down on her bed) and put the tray and plates down. She sighed. I sat up and put my arm around her…
“What’s wrong love?” she sighed again and looked up at me. She was staring into my eyes as if something was wrong with her. She put her head on my should and closed her eyes. I could feel her getting closer and closer to me and then she lifted up her head and her face got closer and closer to mine…
It was my brother Tyrell’s birthday. We were now in March and the Easter holidays were soon coming. A group of us were going TGI’s and then the next day he was having a drink-up. I had no idea who was coming to this drink up, but it was likely Kyle would be there.
I was standing in front of my full length bedroom mirror straightening my fringe (my hair was now Jet black with a purple fringe), and mentally going through my wardrobe.
The doorbell downstairs rang and I had to go and answer it because my mum was out, and Chelsea was still in the shower. It was Meisha and Karina… we went back up to my room where they did their make-up and whatever whilst I finished my hair and settled on an outfit. Black wet look leggings and a grey blazer with a white tee underneath.
After I got dressed we took a few pictures and waited for Chelsea to finish up. Whilst the rest of them were getting gassed over some vodka, I was thinking about the previous Saturday. My gran had forced me and a few people from my dad’s side to go to some Chinese restaurant. At first I thought fair enough, until we got there and we had to sit at a table next to Kyle and his family… it was so gay. Him and his cousins were bare talking about me and shit ¬_¬
Anyways we left my house and jumped a bus to TGI’s (Tyrell had already left to go and meet “someone”)
When we got there no-one was there, so I left the rest of them there and went to buy a nice bottle of Malibu so I could ‘Jamie Foxx’ it tonight…
***Kyle***
I am dreading this TGI’s ting tonight boy, Ciara would probably be there and I didn’t wanna see her coz I’m just gonna be reminded of what I lost. I’ve been feeling bare depressed lately, everyone’s been taking the piss out of me telling me I’m lovesick and shit ¬_¬ lowe it. But I think it’s time I stopped being stupid and I was just honest – I am in love with Ciara, and I’m going to do everything in my power to get her back…
***Ciara***
By the time I got back to TGI Fridays everyone was there. As I walked over to the table I clocked my brother’s friend /Kyle’s cousin Trey screwing me… Skeeeeeeeeen! And what have I done to you for you to be screwing me? I sat down between some random guy and Chelsea and placed my bag under the table and when I looked up Kyle was staring at me, and Trey was still screwing me. I just rolled my eyes and turned away from them.
I don't know why Tyrell even still talks to Kyle he’s such a snake :|
The waiter came over and took our orders and everybody started talking amongst themselves. Our drinks arrived, meaning it was time for me to crack open the Malibu ;) it was kinda dark where we were sitting so I could do it easily and discreetly.
I started talking to the guy next to me; Tyrell’s friend from university. His name was Michael… he was bare safe actually but I could tell he was a humble person…unlike some niggers who was STILL screwing me.
“Tyrell watch out, looks like she’s tryna move to another of your bredrins” said Trey. I looked up at him; all I had done was ask Michael for his BB pin and this foolish goat was talking…
“Do you have something to say? I don't understand moos” I said, slamming my drink down on the table. Tyrell was just sitting there as well; he wasn’t even tryna back me up. Well fuck him; I can fight my own battles
“Alowe yourself younger. Learn to respect your elders love”
“I don't respect people who disrespect me, and I also don’t respect animals – especially ones that look and smell like you.”
I got up and walked away from the table, to the toilets. I went into the toilets and stood in front of the mirror. What was I tryna prove with this little front? I wasn’t fooling anybody; inside I was hurting – really bad as well.
I wiped the tears off of my face and looked in the mirror. I looked like shit but I didn’t care. I brushed my hair up into a ponytail and smiled at myself in the mirror. I went back to the table and sat down quietly without looking at or speaking to anyone.
I looked at my phone; I had a text from my friend Jordaine. Me and her had become really tight recently; we’d both been through a lot of shit in the past few months. She was bisexual though, so her relationship was kinda different coz it was with a chick… but whatever. She had just seen her ex with a new girl… I guess no matter what sex a person is, it still hurts when they hurt you…
***
The next day I went to Jordaine’s house… she lived down the road from Kyle unfortunately but I didn’t see him on my way.
We were sitting on her sofa and she was telling me about what happened with her ex and when she saw her.
“You’re so lucky Ciara, you already knew what you wanted, whereas I’m just fucking confused. Stupid people!”
“Ermm… darling are you talking about males or females?” I asked her
“Both!” we started laughing…
It was nice having a friend who actually knows what you’re going through… all my other friends were just like get over it, shit happens. But you can't relate until it happens to you. Jordaine was the only person in the whole world I knew I’d had an abortion, we told each other everything now…
She came back from the kitchen with two plates and a tray loaded with food and a bottle of Jack Daniels :)
She sat down next to me (I was laying down on her bed) and put the tray and plates down. She sighed. I sat up and put my arm around her…
“What’s wrong love?” she sighed again and looked up at me. She was staring into my eyes as if something was wrong with her. She put her head on my should and closed her eyes. I could feel her getting closer and closer to me and then she lifted up her head and her face got closer and closer to mine…
Wednesday, 21 April 2010
Chapter 17
Chapter 17
I hadn’t seen Kyle since the day I dumped him. I knew I wouldn’t, I had no reason to – Tyrell was away at uni and I obviously hadn’t made plans to see him. I had totally changed up my life. Although I hadn’t told anyone about the abortion, everyone had noticed changes in me. I had put on some weight, and dyed my hair blonde – kinda like Beyonce’s colour, but I was planning to dye it jet black soon.
I had just woken up on a Friday morning; it was around 6:30. I picked up my Blackberry, which was flashing and saw that someone had pinged me while I had been sleeping. It was my godsister, Karina, asking me if I was still coming to some drink-up that evening. I replied saying yes and jumped in the shower after brushing my teeth.
**
Me, Rianna, Karina and Meisha were jamming in some house in Brixton. None of us were impressed with the people there… we had basically followed Rianna to her man’s bredrins house. Us three were sitting their screwfacing like mad, while Rianna was all over her man.
The doorbell rang and I heard bare deep voices. Coz I was busy pinging someone I was ready to punch Karina when she pinched my arm. When I looked at her, her face was like she saw a ghost. Kyle had just walked in with some boys.
I had totally forgotten that Bradley and Kyle were friends… fucking hell man!
Meisha stood up and picked up my bag.
“Rianna… come we’re going.” I said as we got to the living room door
Rianna looked up at me like she didn’t wanna move from her seat…
“ermm… you lot go ahead, I’ll catch you up.”
“Listen yeah, I’m not waiting around in the cold, so either come now or come alone.”
I turned and walked out of the room slamming the front door behind me.
“She aint coming.” I said to Meisha and Karina, who were waiting at the bottom of the stairs.
We walked down to the tube station and jumped on a tube to Balham, and then a train back to their ends.
When we got to the platform at Balham station there was a bag of mandem standing there waiting. I really hoped they wouldn’t say anything to us, or get on the same train as us coz I really weren’t in the mood for man.
“The train now approaching Platform One is the 23:51 southern service to West Croydon. This train is the service from London Victoria.”
**
It was now 2am. We were jamming on Rina’s bed, eating Chinese and drinkin some Malibu and Coke. Meisha went over to the window and sat on the edge whilst lighting up a spliff. We passed it around slowly, none of us wanting to share.
This was the life boy, jamming with my girls, eating, drinking and getting high.
Around 4, Rianna decided it would be fun to show up.
“You snake Rianna… why did you stay by yourself?” said Karina
“Coz I wanted to talk Kyle about Ciara…” she looked at me but I just turned away
“Ciara… you know he still likes you.”
“Rianna… you’re lucky it’s four in the fucking morning and I’m high coz otherwise I’d wileing out right about now. I don’t give a fuck about Kyle and what he wants, why should I?”
I turned away from her and closed my eyes.
The next morning we all (minus Rianna and plus Jadey, some girl from my college who K & M knew as well) went shopping. I was trying to give myself a whole new look; I was sick of my life and wanted to change everything about it.
My dad had put my monthly allowance into my bank account so I just paid for everything by card. Boy, you should have seen the amount of bags we left that shopping centre with.
After my mum picked up from Karina’s house we went out to dinner at Pizza Hut.
“You know you’re gran’s coming to London for Easter? Well you’re dad claims she wants to stay with US for some odd reason…”
I started laughing when my mum said that. Why did my ‘grandmother’ (my dad’s mum) wanna stay with me and my mum? Apparently she had never liked my mum because she’s not black. That’s rich coming from a woman who had all her kids with a mixed race man (my granddad) and a quarter-cast man (Monifa’s granddad).
Before we left I ran to go to the toilet… as I came out of the women’s toilets some boy/man was standing outside the men’s. He smiled at me, so I smiled back and started walking
“You have a really nice smile you know” he said. I turned around coz I wasn’t sure if he was talking to me.
“Are you talking to me??” I asked him. He nodded “thanks.” I turned and walked out of the little corridor back to the main restaurant and out to the car park where my mum was waiting.
When we got home I tried on my new clothes, making sure they actually fitted and then put them in my basket to get washed. I opened my bedroom window and put some dirty clothes under the door – then I lit up the spliff Meisha had given me.
Good times… from now on, my life was going to be all about me, my family and nobody else.
I hadn’t seen Kyle since the day I dumped him. I knew I wouldn’t, I had no reason to – Tyrell was away at uni and I obviously hadn’t made plans to see him. I had totally changed up my life. Although I hadn’t told anyone about the abortion, everyone had noticed changes in me. I had put on some weight, and dyed my hair blonde – kinda like Beyonce’s colour, but I was planning to dye it jet black soon.
I had just woken up on a Friday morning; it was around 6:30. I picked up my Blackberry, which was flashing and saw that someone had pinged me while I had been sleeping. It was my godsister, Karina, asking me if I was still coming to some drink-up that evening. I replied saying yes and jumped in the shower after brushing my teeth.
**
Me, Rianna, Karina and Meisha were jamming in some house in Brixton. None of us were impressed with the people there… we had basically followed Rianna to her man’s bredrins house. Us three were sitting their screwfacing like mad, while Rianna was all over her man.
The doorbell rang and I heard bare deep voices. Coz I was busy pinging someone I was ready to punch Karina when she pinched my arm. When I looked at her, her face was like she saw a ghost. Kyle had just walked in with some boys.
I had totally forgotten that Bradley and Kyle were friends… fucking hell man!
Meisha stood up and picked up my bag.
“Rianna… come we’re going.” I said as we got to the living room door
Rianna looked up at me like she didn’t wanna move from her seat…
“ermm… you lot go ahead, I’ll catch you up.”
“Listen yeah, I’m not waiting around in the cold, so either come now or come alone.”
I turned and walked out of the room slamming the front door behind me.
“She aint coming.” I said to Meisha and Karina, who were waiting at the bottom of the stairs.
We walked down to the tube station and jumped on a tube to Balham, and then a train back to their ends.
When we got to the platform at Balham station there was a bag of mandem standing there waiting. I really hoped they wouldn’t say anything to us, or get on the same train as us coz I really weren’t in the mood for man.
“The train now approaching Platform One is the 23:51 southern service to West Croydon. This train is the service from London Victoria.”
**
It was now 2am. We were jamming on Rina’s bed, eating Chinese and drinkin some Malibu and Coke. Meisha went over to the window and sat on the edge whilst lighting up a spliff. We passed it around slowly, none of us wanting to share.
This was the life boy, jamming with my girls, eating, drinking and getting high.
Around 4, Rianna decided it would be fun to show up.
“You snake Rianna… why did you stay by yourself?” said Karina
“Coz I wanted to talk Kyle about Ciara…” she looked at me but I just turned away
“Ciara… you know he still likes you.”
“Rianna… you’re lucky it’s four in the fucking morning and I’m high coz otherwise I’d wileing out right about now. I don’t give a fuck about Kyle and what he wants, why should I?”
I turned away from her and closed my eyes.
The next morning we all (minus Rianna and plus Jadey, some girl from my college who K & M knew as well) went shopping. I was trying to give myself a whole new look; I was sick of my life and wanted to change everything about it.
My dad had put my monthly allowance into my bank account so I just paid for everything by card. Boy, you should have seen the amount of bags we left that shopping centre with.
After my mum picked up from Karina’s house we went out to dinner at Pizza Hut.
“You know you’re gran’s coming to London for Easter? Well you’re dad claims she wants to stay with US for some odd reason…”
I started laughing when my mum said that. Why did my ‘grandmother’ (my dad’s mum) wanna stay with me and my mum? Apparently she had never liked my mum because she’s not black. That’s rich coming from a woman who had all her kids with a mixed race man (my granddad) and a quarter-cast man (Monifa’s granddad).
Before we left I ran to go to the toilet… as I came out of the women’s toilets some boy/man was standing outside the men’s. He smiled at me, so I smiled back and started walking
“You have a really nice smile you know” he said. I turned around coz I wasn’t sure if he was talking to me.
“Are you talking to me??” I asked him. He nodded “thanks.” I turned and walked out of the little corridor back to the main restaurant and out to the car park where my mum was waiting.
When we got home I tried on my new clothes, making sure they actually fitted and then put them in my basket to get washed. I opened my bedroom window and put some dirty clothes under the door – then I lit up the spliff Meisha had given me.
Good times… from now on, my life was going to be all about me, my family and nobody else.
Friday, 16 April 2010
Chapter 16
Chapter 16
Kyle grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I don't know why but I squeezed back
“It’s positive.” My face dropped and I could feel tears in my eyes.
“I’ll leave the two of you alone for a while. When I come back we can discuss what your next move will be.”
I put my head down between my legs and kept it there for a while. I didn’t know what to do, but all I knew was my life was either way my life was gonna be ruined. If I had an abortion, I would feel like shit for the rest of my life. If I kept it, my mum would beat the black out of me.
“What do you wanna do then?” I kept quiet for a bit and then sat up
“I don't know.” I sat there hugging myself whilst staring into space. I looked over at him.
“What do you wanna do?” I asked him. We were both in the predicament, but I was gonna get the short straw no matter what happened.
“Well it aint really up to me, it’s up to you. It’s your body init…”
“Err hello! It’s your child as well, I’m not gonna make a decision for you to hold it against me for the rest of our lives.”
He paused; as if he didn’t wanna say what he was gonna say
“I think we should get rid of it. I mean, you’re still young; you’re in college and shit. And we both know your mum won't be happy about this.”
He was right, but I didn’t wanna just go along with what he was saying; I’m not a dickhead.
After ten more minutes of silence the nurse came back.
“Have you decided??”
I nodded. I looked at Kyle. He nodded as well
“I’m going to have an abortion.” I stated without any emotion.
The nurse nodded and started talking about stuff. She said I was just over nine weeks pregnant, which meant that I couldn't just take a pill and go home, I had to have it sucked out of me. She talked about everything that was gonna happen but I wasn’t really paying attention. She made an appointment for Monday – which was only two days away, coz I just wanted to get it done.
We left the clinic about twenty minutes later and Kyle dropped me home. The next two days were going to be very long…
***
I woke up really early on Monday morning. I had been tossing and turning all night…
My appointment was at 1:30 and the time was 8am. I started college late on Mondays, so I got dressed like normal, in a plain black Adidas adicolours tracksuit.
My mum had already left so I tried to jam in front of the TV for a bit, but I honestly couldn't concentrate. I left my house around 12 to meet Kyle at the clinic… as I walked to the bus stop I felt as if I was walking to my death. I felt like I was walking around in a daze.
Before the abortion could actually happen we had to go and talk to that stupid nurse again. She was chatting some nonsense about contraception for after the abortion. You should have seen the dirty screw she received from me.
She took me into some room and gave me one of those gowns to put on, she also told me to take my knickers off.
The nurse came back with a doctor who explained what was gonna happen as if I didn’t already know. They left the room and Kyle came in.
“You know you can't stay in here…?” I asked him, it was a bit obvious mate
“Yeah… I just wanted to say something. I know you probably hate me, I don't blame you though; it’s my own stupid fault… but I wanna change – I’m gonna change. For you.” He said, and then walked out of the room before I could respond.
***
The next thing I knew, I was lying in some room where there was like two other beds. The girl laying on the bed next to me was crying. At first I was confused – I thought maybe I was in hospital…until I remembered where I really was, and what I’d just done.
As I realised that my life was never gonna be the same I started crying.
After I had been awake for about 45 mins a nurse came in to check on us. She helped the other girl to get dressed and then took her out of the room. She came back in and started talking to me. She brought me a glass of water and said she would come back later.
About half an hour later I was lying on the back seat of Kyle’s car. It wasn’t the same car that he was ‘looking after’ or whatever bullshit he said, it was a different one. Yeah, so I was laying on the backseat trying to ignore the stupid pains in my belly, it was like I was being haunted by the ghost of my unborn child. We were sitting in the car park of Asda, literally just sitting there. Neither of us was speaking it was really awkward.
“Are you OK?” I asked Kyle
He turned and looked at me like he hadn’t even clocked I was there.
He nodded and then coughed
“Do you wanna go home now or…?”
I said yeah and climbed into the front seat.
We pulled up in front of my house and he turned off the engine.
“So wa gwarn then?” he asked… I had no idea what he was talking about
“With what??”
“Us… wa gwarn with us?”
I rolled my eyes. I just fucking killed off my child and this prick is here chatting shit about “us”
“There is no us, Kyle. I think it’s time I made myself clear – I can’t be with you; you cheated on me with someone I thought was a friend. There’s nothing keeping us together anymore, I’ve had an abortion nothing ties us together anymore.” I said, and then I opened the door and got out of the car.
He got out as well.
“What the fuck, Ciara? How you gonna end it like that?” he followed me as I walked to my front door
“Darling, you ended it the moment you put your stuff in that bitch.”
I unlocked my front door and walked in, slamming the door in his face.
I leaned against the door and took a deep breath. It was finally over.
I went straight to my laptop and logged on to Facebook – I updated my relationship status to ‘Single’ and went through my friends’ list deleting Kyle, Rachel, Kellie and anyone else I didn’t know before I got with him. Technically I already knew Kellie but I didn’t like her anyway.
It felt like I could finally breathe again.
Kyle grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I don't know why but I squeezed back
“It’s positive.” My face dropped and I could feel tears in my eyes.
“I’ll leave the two of you alone for a while. When I come back we can discuss what your next move will be.”
I put my head down between my legs and kept it there for a while. I didn’t know what to do, but all I knew was my life was either way my life was gonna be ruined. If I had an abortion, I would feel like shit for the rest of my life. If I kept it, my mum would beat the black out of me.
“What do you wanna do then?” I kept quiet for a bit and then sat up
“I don't know.” I sat there hugging myself whilst staring into space. I looked over at him.
“What do you wanna do?” I asked him. We were both in the predicament, but I was gonna get the short straw no matter what happened.
“Well it aint really up to me, it’s up to you. It’s your body init…”
“Err hello! It’s your child as well, I’m not gonna make a decision for you to hold it against me for the rest of our lives.”
He paused; as if he didn’t wanna say what he was gonna say
“I think we should get rid of it. I mean, you’re still young; you’re in college and shit. And we both know your mum won't be happy about this.”
He was right, but I didn’t wanna just go along with what he was saying; I’m not a dickhead.
After ten more minutes of silence the nurse came back.
“Have you decided??”
I nodded. I looked at Kyle. He nodded as well
“I’m going to have an abortion.” I stated without any emotion.
The nurse nodded and started talking about stuff. She said I was just over nine weeks pregnant, which meant that I couldn't just take a pill and go home, I had to have it sucked out of me. She talked about everything that was gonna happen but I wasn’t really paying attention. She made an appointment for Monday – which was only two days away, coz I just wanted to get it done.
We left the clinic about twenty minutes later and Kyle dropped me home. The next two days were going to be very long…
***
I woke up really early on Monday morning. I had been tossing and turning all night…
My appointment was at 1:30 and the time was 8am. I started college late on Mondays, so I got dressed like normal, in a plain black Adidas adicolours tracksuit.
My mum had already left so I tried to jam in front of the TV for a bit, but I honestly couldn't concentrate. I left my house around 12 to meet Kyle at the clinic… as I walked to the bus stop I felt as if I was walking to my death. I felt like I was walking around in a daze.
Before the abortion could actually happen we had to go and talk to that stupid nurse again. She was chatting some nonsense about contraception for after the abortion. You should have seen the dirty screw she received from me.
She took me into some room and gave me one of those gowns to put on, she also told me to take my knickers off.
The nurse came back with a doctor who explained what was gonna happen as if I didn’t already know. They left the room and Kyle came in.
“You know you can't stay in here…?” I asked him, it was a bit obvious mate
“Yeah… I just wanted to say something. I know you probably hate me, I don't blame you though; it’s my own stupid fault… but I wanna change – I’m gonna change. For you.” He said, and then walked out of the room before I could respond.
***
The next thing I knew, I was lying in some room where there was like two other beds. The girl laying on the bed next to me was crying. At first I was confused – I thought maybe I was in hospital…until I remembered where I really was, and what I’d just done.
As I realised that my life was never gonna be the same I started crying.
After I had been awake for about 45 mins a nurse came in to check on us. She helped the other girl to get dressed and then took her out of the room. She came back in and started talking to me. She brought me a glass of water and said she would come back later.
About half an hour later I was lying on the back seat of Kyle’s car. It wasn’t the same car that he was ‘looking after’ or whatever bullshit he said, it was a different one. Yeah, so I was laying on the backseat trying to ignore the stupid pains in my belly, it was like I was being haunted by the ghost of my unborn child. We were sitting in the car park of Asda, literally just sitting there. Neither of us was speaking it was really awkward.
“Are you OK?” I asked Kyle
He turned and looked at me like he hadn’t even clocked I was there.
He nodded and then coughed
“Do you wanna go home now or…?”
I said yeah and climbed into the front seat.
We pulled up in front of my house and he turned off the engine.
“So wa gwarn then?” he asked… I had no idea what he was talking about
“With what??”
“Us… wa gwarn with us?”
I rolled my eyes. I just fucking killed off my child and this prick is here chatting shit about “us”
“There is no us, Kyle. I think it’s time I made myself clear – I can’t be with you; you cheated on me with someone I thought was a friend. There’s nothing keeping us together anymore, I’ve had an abortion nothing ties us together anymore.” I said, and then I opened the door and got out of the car.
He got out as well.
“What the fuck, Ciara? How you gonna end it like that?” he followed me as I walked to my front door
“Darling, you ended it the moment you put your stuff in that bitch.”
I unlocked my front door and walked in, slamming the door in his face.
I leaned against the door and took a deep breath. It was finally over.
I went straight to my laptop and logged on to Facebook – I updated my relationship status to ‘Single’ and went through my friends’ list deleting Kyle, Rachel, Kellie and anyone else I didn’t know before I got with him. Technically I already knew Kellie but I didn’t like her anyway.
It felt like I could finally breathe again.
Wednesday, 14 April 2010
Chapter 15
Chapter 15
A few weeks had passed since New Years Eve. Camilla’s mum try call me up on a hype, but in the end nothing happened, coz I told her the truth about why we fucked her up.
I had only seen Kyle once since NYE, but just in passing. We didn’t speak. He still tries calling me occasionally but I never answer.
I was lying in my bed one Saturday morning, a week before Kyle’s birthday. I was on Facebook on my laptop. I had just reactivated my account, so I was just browsing through, seeing if anything interesting had happened. I had deleted Camilla from my Facebook on New Years Day, and it looked like she had deactivated her account as well.
I went on Kyle’s page, looking through seeing what hoes had been writing on his wall. I was still listed as in a relationship with him, but only because we still hadn’t officially broken up.
Most of his recent statuses were about football or music. But then I noticed there was one from the night before, something about wishing he had a time machine…
All of a sudden I felt a twinge in my tummy and I was feeling bare dizzy. I threw my laptop across the bed and stood up.
The room started spinning… and then it came. The vomit
I managed to get it all over myself and on the carpet as well… eww! I waited for the pain to go away and then I stood up. Feeling much better. I went into the bathroom and filled the bath with hot water and threw my pyjamas (which were actually one of Kyle’s tops and a pair of shorts) into it.
I went back to my room with some cleaning stuff and tried to clean the vomit. The smell was nasty, and was making me wanna vomit again. After I finished I sat down on the bed again.
I picked up my laptop and changed my status to: ‘someone please tell me why I’ve got vomit all over myself :(‘
As if by magic, five minutes later my phone started ringing, with the name Dickhead flashing. It was Kyle.
“What??”
“You allrite??” he asked, he sounded bare concerned
“Why do you care? It’s not like you cared about me when you were fucking other girls.”
He went silent, and then he cleared his throat
“You know I’m sorry… but it’s up to you if you’re gonna forgive me or not”
This nigga was really tryna guilt trip me. I was about to respond when I felt vomit rising up in my chest. This time I made it to the toilet and I was sick like three times.
I hung up the phone and got in the shower. I was in there for time; I felt like the vomit was spread all over my body. As I came out of the shower, I heard the doorbell ringing. I went into my room and put on my dressing gown. The doorbell rang again as I was running down to open the door.
I opened the door without asking who it was and was surprised to see Kyle standing there.
“Why are you here, Kyle?? Can you just leave me alone please, I just wanna be alone.”
I turned and looked in the mirror on the wall. I looked bare ill; my skin was bare pale and I had started getting bare spots.
“You look really sick Ciara… I was worried about you init, that’s why I came here.” He grabbed my arm and led me over to the stairs.
After he sat me down, he say down as well and put his arm around me. We sat in silence for what seemed like years until Kyle decided to speak.
“What do you think is wrong with you?” he asked cautiously, as if he thought I would stab him just for talking.
I didn’t much feel like talking, so I just shrugged. I really didn’t know, and I didn’t wanna know.
“Well…I have an idea, but I dunno…” he paused, waiting for me to speak
“What’s the idea?” deep down in my stomach I knew what he was about to say but I didn’t wanna hear it
He cleared his throat, and then spoke
“You could be pregnant”
I sat in silence for a bit. I knew he was gonna say that, but it still made my stomach start knotting up. If I was pregnant this would be the end of my life. My mum would definitely kick me out, my dad would probably want to kill Kyle and as for my brothers… lets just say there would definitely be a funeral.
I got dressed and we went to the clinic near his house, to get a pregnancy test done. We didn’t speak for the whole journey, and for the whole time we were waiting to be seen.
When we sat down in front of the nurse, Kyle grabbed my hand and tried to hold it but I just pushed it away and folded my arms across my chest. The nurse looked at me, and then looked him. She could probably sense the tension between us, but didn’t say anything.
“So you want a pregnancy test, right?” she asked, like a dumb prick.
“That’s exactly what I wrote on the form that I filled in.” I rolled my eyes as I answered
“Ah, right. Yes you did. Well what makes you think you’re pregnant?”
“Listen yeah; I haven’t got the patience for this. I came here for a test, not for 21 million questions!”
She went silent, like she was counting to ten in her mind, and then she spoke
“Sorry, its just my job to know the details. Anyway, the toilet’s at the end of the hallway.” She smiled, as she handed me the test.
I took the test and started walking out of the room.
As I was about to open the door I heard the nurse speak.
“Aren’t you going with her?” she was obviously talking to Kyle.
I turned around and he was looking at me.
“Stay here” I said and walked out to the toilet.
I laid some tissue down on the seat, and sat down. After doing the test, I washed my hands and went back to the room.
I handed the test to the nurse and she put it down on her desk
“Well, it’s gonna take a few minutes for the results to show up. So how long have the two of you been together?” this woman was still smiling. She was so fucking inna, I wanted to punch her
Kyle answered for me
“Ermm… about six months.” when he said that I looked at him. He looked at me, holding eye contact. I rolled my eyes and turned away.
We all sat in silence for a bit and then she picked up the test. She looked at the test and then looked at us.
“Are you ready to hear the results now?”
...
A few weeks had passed since New Years Eve. Camilla’s mum try call me up on a hype, but in the end nothing happened, coz I told her the truth about why we fucked her up.
I had only seen Kyle once since NYE, but just in passing. We didn’t speak. He still tries calling me occasionally but I never answer.
I was lying in my bed one Saturday morning, a week before Kyle’s birthday. I was on Facebook on my laptop. I had just reactivated my account, so I was just browsing through, seeing if anything interesting had happened. I had deleted Camilla from my Facebook on New Years Day, and it looked like she had deactivated her account as well.
I went on Kyle’s page, looking through seeing what hoes had been writing on his wall. I was still listed as in a relationship with him, but only because we still hadn’t officially broken up.
Most of his recent statuses were about football or music. But then I noticed there was one from the night before, something about wishing he had a time machine…
All of a sudden I felt a twinge in my tummy and I was feeling bare dizzy. I threw my laptop across the bed and stood up.
The room started spinning… and then it came. The vomit
I managed to get it all over myself and on the carpet as well… eww! I waited for the pain to go away and then I stood up. Feeling much better. I went into the bathroom and filled the bath with hot water and threw my pyjamas (which were actually one of Kyle’s tops and a pair of shorts) into it.
I went back to my room with some cleaning stuff and tried to clean the vomit. The smell was nasty, and was making me wanna vomit again. After I finished I sat down on the bed again.
I picked up my laptop and changed my status to: ‘someone please tell me why I’ve got vomit all over myself :(‘
As if by magic, five minutes later my phone started ringing, with the name Dickhead flashing. It was Kyle.
“What??”
“You allrite??” he asked, he sounded bare concerned
“Why do you care? It’s not like you cared about me when you were fucking other girls.”
He went silent, and then he cleared his throat
“You know I’m sorry… but it’s up to you if you’re gonna forgive me or not”
This nigga was really tryna guilt trip me. I was about to respond when I felt vomit rising up in my chest. This time I made it to the toilet and I was sick like three times.
I hung up the phone and got in the shower. I was in there for time; I felt like the vomit was spread all over my body. As I came out of the shower, I heard the doorbell ringing. I went into my room and put on my dressing gown. The doorbell rang again as I was running down to open the door.
I opened the door without asking who it was and was surprised to see Kyle standing there.
“Why are you here, Kyle?? Can you just leave me alone please, I just wanna be alone.”
I turned and looked in the mirror on the wall. I looked bare ill; my skin was bare pale and I had started getting bare spots.
“You look really sick Ciara… I was worried about you init, that’s why I came here.” He grabbed my arm and led me over to the stairs.
After he sat me down, he say down as well and put his arm around me. We sat in silence for what seemed like years until Kyle decided to speak.
“What do you think is wrong with you?” he asked cautiously, as if he thought I would stab him just for talking.
I didn’t much feel like talking, so I just shrugged. I really didn’t know, and I didn’t wanna know.
“Well…I have an idea, but I dunno…” he paused, waiting for me to speak
“What’s the idea?” deep down in my stomach I knew what he was about to say but I didn’t wanna hear it
He cleared his throat, and then spoke
“You could be pregnant”
I sat in silence for a bit. I knew he was gonna say that, but it still made my stomach start knotting up. If I was pregnant this would be the end of my life. My mum would definitely kick me out, my dad would probably want to kill Kyle and as for my brothers… lets just say there would definitely be a funeral.
I got dressed and we went to the clinic near his house, to get a pregnancy test done. We didn’t speak for the whole journey, and for the whole time we were waiting to be seen.
When we sat down in front of the nurse, Kyle grabbed my hand and tried to hold it but I just pushed it away and folded my arms across my chest. The nurse looked at me, and then looked him. She could probably sense the tension between us, but didn’t say anything.
“So you want a pregnancy test, right?” she asked, like a dumb prick.
“That’s exactly what I wrote on the form that I filled in.” I rolled my eyes as I answered
“Ah, right. Yes you did. Well what makes you think you’re pregnant?”
“Listen yeah; I haven’t got the patience for this. I came here for a test, not for 21 million questions!”
She went silent, like she was counting to ten in her mind, and then she spoke
“Sorry, its just my job to know the details. Anyway, the toilet’s at the end of the hallway.” She smiled, as she handed me the test.
I took the test and started walking out of the room.
As I was about to open the door I heard the nurse speak.
“Aren’t you going with her?” she was obviously talking to Kyle.
I turned around and he was looking at me.
“Stay here” I said and walked out to the toilet.
I laid some tissue down on the seat, and sat down. After doing the test, I washed my hands and went back to the room.
I handed the test to the nurse and she put it down on her desk
“Well, it’s gonna take a few minutes for the results to show up. So how long have the two of you been together?” this woman was still smiling. She was so fucking inna, I wanted to punch her
Kyle answered for me
“Ermm… about six months.” when he said that I looked at him. He looked at me, holding eye contact. I rolled my eyes and turned away.
We all sat in silence for a bit and then she picked up the test. She looked at the test and then looked at us.
“Are you ready to hear the results now?”
...
Sunday, 11 April 2010
Chapter 14 - Part 2
Chapter 14
“TEN. NINE. EIGHT. SEVEN. SIX. FIVE. FOUR. THREE. TWO. ONE. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!”
Everyone in the club started screaming and cheering and bare people were kissing. Lowe it.
The music came back on and we headed over to the dancefloor. As we descended the stairs leading to the dancefloor, something told me to look at the doors. Just as I did I noticed Kyle walking in with a bag of mandem, and then behind them was … Camilla and her friend Vitalija.
So much for it didn’t mean anything, and me being the one he loves … dead.
As soon as the bashment started pumping I started moving my batty, hoping that dancing would help me forget the pain. Well at least she didn’t come with back up, and I knew it was unlikely that Vitalija would back her up. I felt someone come behind me and started holding my hips whilst grindin on my bum.
After a while I moved away from the guy and me, Maria, Stephanie and Meisha jumped on some tables and started dancing like some any strippers.
The rest of our group had gone back up to the little bar/seating section so we went back to them. Unfortunately, sitting at the next table was Kyle, Camilla and the rest. I didn’t even acknowledge that I saw them before I sat down.
I got up to go the toilet and as I walked past Kyle’s table I noticed Camilla kissing up on his neck and shit while he tried to push her off. FUNNAYY!
When I came out of the toilets, Kyle’s friend Derome was standing there.
“What’s going on with you and Kyle fam??” he still had to shout even though we weren’t in the main area the music was still loud.
“Ask him, he’s your bredrin.” I was about to walk off but he grabbed my arm
“So you’re telling me that you don’t business that there’s some girl all over your man out there. Coz even if you don't care its making you look like some any prick.”
Derome was right. We hadn’t officially broken up, so technically I could still tell this bitch to step off.
Derome led me out onto the fire escape and lit up a spliff. He offered at to me and I gladly took it. The most I’ve ever smoked was a normal cigarette so this was a whole new experience. After a bit he put it out and we went back into the party.
I was walking fucked up boy, I think the weed had gone to my head. I felt bare hot as well but I just tried to ignore it and felt my way back to my seat.
There were bare man clocking me and my loyal gyaldem coz we were looking fire blud. They kept coming over to our table tryna chat to us and shit but they were just getting parred off. We sat there people watching, sipping our drinks and just generally cracking jokes, and then I clocked Camilla walking off to the toilets by herself. I motioned for the girls who were with me before to follow my lead. I took off my heels and quickly paced behind her, not too fast coz I didn’t want people to clock, but it was kinda bait – like 8 girls black and mixed race girls moving in the same direction looking like some dodgy ass bitches. Bare people went silent as we walked past their tables and shit…
Just as we entered the toilets I saw which cubicle Camilla went into. We told all the other girls in there to get out. Best know they ran out straight like pussyholes.
Karina and I walked over to the cubicle and she kicked open the door in one kick. I would have done, but I hate to admit this bitch has some any hench legs :)
My girl must have been doing a shit or something coz some any dirty smell came out.
“So you thought you could fuck my man yeah??”
She looked shook at first, but then she tried to front like she wasn’t
“Well darling you obviously weren’t satisfying him, or he wouldn’t have come to me.”
That was it. I walked over to her and grabbed her head, smacking it into the cubicle wall
She tried to punch me in my belly but it didn’t even hurt.
“Is that all you got you dumb sket??” I asked
I turned my head to take out my earrings and my girl tried to fucking sucker punch me. I finished taking out my earrings and then just as I was about to bang her in her face she ran out the toilets.
Meisha ran after her, and the rest of us chased after them…
She was back in the main club area, at the table she was sitting at before but no-one was there. Meisha was holding her down to the seat, and sitting on top of her.
Everyone was watching us now.
I stood there watching her struggle under Meisha’s weight. Meisha was slim but strong, she was practically strangling the bitch. Meisha dragged her off of the seat and dashed her on the floor. As soon as she touched the floor Karina turned her over, whilst Renee jumped on top of her and started banging her in the face. My girl must have been in pain at this point, coz God knows Renee aint no slim-ting. Karina lifted her foot and stamped on her face and we all heard some dirty crunch and all the crowd was like “oooh!” Renee got off of her and jumped on her belly. Camilla started coughing at this point, she was fucked, but it was time for me to do my ting. I pulled her up by her hair and smashed her face into the metal wall. Shanice handed me some metal pole; I slapped her round the face with it.
We left her lying on the floor, she deserved a break :)
After a bit she stood up and wiped the blood from her face. Stephanie jumped on the table, and kicked her in the face on one side; Shanice did the same on the other.
Maria and Rianna had grabbed all of our stuff and were waiting outside the club. I looked up clocked Kyle in the crowd. He was just standing there watching me. he started walking towards me and tried to drag me away.
“Get the fuck off of me. Don’t ever in your life attempt to touch me without my permission” I pushed him away and we breezed out of the club.
“TEN. NINE. EIGHT. SEVEN. SIX. FIVE. FOUR. THREE. TWO. ONE. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!”
Everyone in the club started screaming and cheering and bare people were kissing. Lowe it.
The music came back on and we headed over to the dancefloor. As we descended the stairs leading to the dancefloor, something told me to look at the doors. Just as I did I noticed Kyle walking in with a bag of mandem, and then behind them was … Camilla and her friend Vitalija.
So much for it didn’t mean anything, and me being the one he loves … dead.
As soon as the bashment started pumping I started moving my batty, hoping that dancing would help me forget the pain. Well at least she didn’t come with back up, and I knew it was unlikely that Vitalija would back her up. I felt someone come behind me and started holding my hips whilst grindin on my bum.
After a while I moved away from the guy and me, Maria, Stephanie and Meisha jumped on some tables and started dancing like some any strippers.
The rest of our group had gone back up to the little bar/seating section so we went back to them. Unfortunately, sitting at the next table was Kyle, Camilla and the rest. I didn’t even acknowledge that I saw them before I sat down.
I got up to go the toilet and as I walked past Kyle’s table I noticed Camilla kissing up on his neck and shit while he tried to push her off. FUNNAYY!
When I came out of the toilets, Kyle’s friend Derome was standing there.
“What’s going on with you and Kyle fam??” he still had to shout even though we weren’t in the main area the music was still loud.
“Ask him, he’s your bredrin.” I was about to walk off but he grabbed my arm
“So you’re telling me that you don’t business that there’s some girl all over your man out there. Coz even if you don't care its making you look like some any prick.”
Derome was right. We hadn’t officially broken up, so technically I could still tell this bitch to step off.
Derome led me out onto the fire escape and lit up a spliff. He offered at to me and I gladly took it. The most I’ve ever smoked was a normal cigarette so this was a whole new experience. After a bit he put it out and we went back into the party.
I was walking fucked up boy, I think the weed had gone to my head. I felt bare hot as well but I just tried to ignore it and felt my way back to my seat.
There were bare man clocking me and my loyal gyaldem coz we were looking fire blud. They kept coming over to our table tryna chat to us and shit but they were just getting parred off. We sat there people watching, sipping our drinks and just generally cracking jokes, and then I clocked Camilla walking off to the toilets by herself. I motioned for the girls who were with me before to follow my lead. I took off my heels and quickly paced behind her, not too fast coz I didn’t want people to clock, but it was kinda bait – like 8 girls black and mixed race girls moving in the same direction looking like some dodgy ass bitches. Bare people went silent as we walked past their tables and shit…
Just as we entered the toilets I saw which cubicle Camilla went into. We told all the other girls in there to get out. Best know they ran out straight like pussyholes.
Karina and I walked over to the cubicle and she kicked open the door in one kick. I would have done, but I hate to admit this bitch has some any hench legs :)
My girl must have been doing a shit or something coz some any dirty smell came out.
“So you thought you could fuck my man yeah??”
She looked shook at first, but then she tried to front like she wasn’t
“Well darling you obviously weren’t satisfying him, or he wouldn’t have come to me.”
That was it. I walked over to her and grabbed her head, smacking it into the cubicle wall
She tried to punch me in my belly but it didn’t even hurt.
“Is that all you got you dumb sket??” I asked
I turned my head to take out my earrings and my girl tried to fucking sucker punch me. I finished taking out my earrings and then just as I was about to bang her in her face she ran out the toilets.
Meisha ran after her, and the rest of us chased after them…
She was back in the main club area, at the table she was sitting at before but no-one was there. Meisha was holding her down to the seat, and sitting on top of her.
Everyone was watching us now.
I stood there watching her struggle under Meisha’s weight. Meisha was slim but strong, she was practically strangling the bitch. Meisha dragged her off of the seat and dashed her on the floor. As soon as she touched the floor Karina turned her over, whilst Renee jumped on top of her and started banging her in the face. My girl must have been in pain at this point, coz God knows Renee aint no slim-ting. Karina lifted her foot and stamped on her face and we all heard some dirty crunch and all the crowd was like “oooh!” Renee got off of her and jumped on her belly. Camilla started coughing at this point, she was fucked, but it was time for me to do my ting. I pulled her up by her hair and smashed her face into the metal wall. Shanice handed me some metal pole; I slapped her round the face with it.
We left her lying on the floor, she deserved a break :)
After a bit she stood up and wiped the blood from her face. Stephanie jumped on the table, and kicked her in the face on one side; Shanice did the same on the other.
Maria and Rianna had grabbed all of our stuff and were waiting outside the club. I looked up clocked Kyle in the crowd. He was just standing there watching me. he started walking towards me and tried to drag me away.
“Get the fuck off of me. Don’t ever in your life attempt to touch me without my permission” I pushed him away and we breezed out of the club.
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